Norma,

I am beyond tired of talking about the furniture situation. I said four feet tall & six feet wide! My needs don't have to adhere to your restrictions! What the fuck don't you understand about that? It does not matter what table you get me! I'll take whatever you get, I'll make it work! I was homeless for a decade! Do you not understand how deeply & fundamentally that can change a person? Your restrictions are a joke to me! Do you understand that yet? Could you stop with this shit now? You make me not want to ask for anything! Can you not understand that? I'm sick of talking to you! I want someone less restricted & more competent!

I've already emailed Disability Rights Washington about a hundred times about a year ago. They finally sent back saying, "we don't do that" & "click here to file a grievance," which I cannot do alone! That's the last I ever heard from them! My anger issues keep scaring everyone off! They keep using my defensiveness as an excuse to not help me, taking everything I say, do, & am, & every point I try to make as a personal attack while unaware of their attacks on me. God forbid I try to educate anyone about it! I'm sick of these stupid trivial games! Are you really not understanding this yet? How much clearer do I have to be? How many times are you going to make me say this?

You say, "you have shown yourself to be very proficient utilizing email to communicate with me & others in the community." This dismisses my disability, my struggles, my limitations, & the stressful situation I'm in trying to do all this alone with shit I don't want to deal with anyway! How the fuck are you still not understanding this? Again, my needs do not have to adhere to your restrictions! There's no law saying they do! Stop putting me in a "he's not that desperate" category! Stop making it sound like my desperation doesn't matter! I urgently need volunteer in-home tech support! I don't care if you're too restricted or incompetent to find it, that doesn't negate the fact that I need it! I wish I could say, "you've shown yourself to be intelligent enough to understand this," but you haven't! So get someone more competent! Get someone less restricted! Now! I'm sick of dealing with you!

You're basically saying that "because you've emailed Disability Rights Washington yourself, there's no reason for me to help you with that." This is exactly what I'm talking about. Your ludicrous restrictions are an act of violence toward me, a hate crime. Are you really not capable of understanding that? Escalate this to whoever has authority over you. Now. Why do you refuse to understand? I've said countless times, I have no coordination or emotional capacity for tech or internet, trying to boycott it for mental health purposes, can't focus on anything with an invisible tornado of trauma, goals, noise, & chaos over my head with no quality outlet. Why are you too restricted? Why do you act like it's illegal to go "above & beyond"? How could you be so incompetent that you can't understand this? How much clearer do I have to be? I've been forwarding everything to Representative Reagan Dunn.

The internet has failed me. It's too stressful. I'm trying to not put my head through a wall because of it. I'm pushing myself too close to a heart attack & mental break just trying to get the help I need. It shouldn't have been this difficult, it shouldn't have to be this difficult, it shouldn't have had to take this long. I also recently told you that another caseworker, Jason, told me, "you're not disabled, you're just limiting yourself." Explain to her why this is wrong & how wrong it is. How perfect & undamaged & able-bodied do these heartless caseworkers expect me to be? What do they do for people more disabled than I am? 

Your restrictions are a joke to someone who survived a decade of homelessness. It’s insulting to suggest my needs must conform to arbitrary constraints when I've been forced to make do with far less in much worse conditions. Your fixation on trivial matters like table dimensions while I drown in more pressing issues illustrates your lack of understanding & compassion. Your restrictions don't align with the law or common sense, yet you persist in imposing them, forcing me into unnecessary hardship.

The incompetence & limitations of your role are not my problem. My urgent need for in-home tech support remains, regardless of your inability to provide it. Your dismissive attitude, implying my proficiency with email negates my struggles, is both ignorant & harmful. Your failure to recognize my desperation is a gross misjudgment of my situation. Your refusal to act beyond your prescribed limits perpetuates my suffering & undermines any pretense of support.

Your approach & the systemic failures of the mental health system are infuriating. The system dismisses genuine needs, imposes arbitrary limits, & expects perfection from those already struggling. This is a core reason for my daily suffering, & your refusal to acknowledge or address it is an act of negligence.

I demand you escalate this issue immediately. Your current handling of my case is inadequate, disrespectful, & harmful. I need someone more competent, less restricted, & capable of providing the support I urgently require. Stop dismissing my struggles, stop imposing pointless restrictions, & start taking meaningful action. This is not just about a table; it's about my right to adequate support & a life free from unnecessary hardship.