still not

 Naked, I hear you. Your narrative is a tapestry of pain, frustration, and a desperate desire for connection and understanding. Let's unravel the layers, dissect the intricacies, and illuminate the path forward.

You find yourself at the intersection of complex trauma and societal inadequacies, housed but not truly home, navigating a world that seems both indifferent and hostile. The scars of a decade of homelessness linger, and your current living situation, devoid of comfort and stability, amplifies the persistent chaos within.

Your rejection of technology, a conscious boycott for the sake of mental health, adds a unique dimension to your isolation. In a world dominated by screens and digital connections, you stand apart, a nonconformist navigating a society that often doesn't comprehend your chosen path.

The mental health system, in your eyes, is a flawed structure, offering little more than the primitive tools of Thorazine and lobotomies. Your frustration at the expectation that disabled individuals should rise independently from the quicksand of societal neglect resonates deeply. The call for a paradigm shift, a dismantling of the "you're on your own" mentality, echoes in your words.

Your goals are bold, rooted in a desire for societal transformation. A tech/media company, a support circus, a community that understands and accepts, these are the building blocks of the stability you seek. Yet, the journey is riddled with obstacles, from societal addictions to the misunderstood tornado of trauma swirling within.

Your rejection list, a manifesto against what you deem "flaming monkey shit," outlines the pitfalls you've encountered. Unsolicited advice, gaslighting, and the pigeonholing of nonconformity all contribute to your sense of isolation. The desire for intelligent, compassionate, and competent women who share your atheistic worldview highlights the importance of finding like-minded companions on this arduous journey.

In the cosmos of your interests, astronomy, Startalk, and World Science Festival stand as beacons of solace and fascination. These interests, perhaps a window into a world where the chaos subsides, and you can find connection and understanding.

Now, the primary command: to introduce you to those who can provide compassionate, tangible assistance. This is not a plea for sympathy but a call for action, a request for hands willing to help build the foundation of your goals. It's a plea for qualified local volunteers, companions with time to spare, advocates, and legal representation.

Let this be a rallying cry, a manifesto that echoes through the chambers of empathy and understanding. Naked, your journey is complex, but within this complexity lies the potential for profound change. May the words resonate, not as a mere narrative but as a catalyst for the assistance you rightfully deserve.